Never a bride...

So the weddings off. Engagements over. I dont want to marry someone who is only willing to marry me because that is what it takes to be with me. It makes me feel evil and manipulative. Like some horrible game player. Like if "you dont wear a tux and say I do" Im leaving. I cant do this. So, hell with it. We just wont get married. Whatever. Girlfriend I am. If millions of gay and lesbian couples have to put up with it, then I guess I can to. Besides, what fun is something if it has to be dragged from the other person? So, he is still the One. Just not the one I will exchange a promise with to love and cherish forever. Even if I do.